I might be well (1113 words)(29111 total)

I thought I might be getting well yesterday but in the afternoon when I tried to do stuff like weeding and folding laundry I was unpleasantly shaky -- not enough to keep from doing things if I had to, but enough that, coupled with my regular lazines, I didn't really want to.

Stopping because I have to go put rubber bands around gambling tickets for the band's Bingo.

I'm getting to the actiony part, the culmination of the chapter -- I'd guess I have maybe 5-7K more to it. Then the vignette in which the man without a country is born and the good bureaucrat meets the charity sisters for the first time, when he's a young teenager, before he's a bureaucrat. And then the next long chapter: in which the man without a country takes charge of the teenaged mother and works in a minefield, and the good bureaucrat faces floods, epidemics, aznd ethnic tension. And meets the teacher he will marry.

I do know what I'm doing. Why is it so hard?

timeline wackiness

So as I'm getting ready to go -- putting on real clothes, that sort of thing -- I had this sudden flash of insight: the current book works better if I thoroughly screw the chronology. It has to do with the ways the questions are asked and answered. And the kind of tension that's built: the second long chapter, the one where the man without a country marries the teenaged mother, is more final than the third long chapter, in which there's a big labor dispute and the possibility of violence. Since the very last vignette of the book is really quite violent, and the vignette between the two chapters is the one in which the man without a country's mother dies-- I think that it really makes much more dramatic sense to switch those two long chapters, which means that the chronology, which was formerly a little odd but basically quite orderly, has become completely tangled, like "Pulp Fiction." Which the kids were watching yesterday, and I didn't want to watch it again, but I did pass through the living room and appreciate the shape of the story, and I knew why it had that one scene at the end instead of in the middle. So maybe that's what made me change these things around. Understanding that the last bit of the story is the one that caps it, that makes the story be about what it's about.

Okay, so this is what ends up happening in my current version:

Readers 1(vignette 1): Chronological 8 (the burial of the man without a country)
Readers 2(vignette 2): Chronological 1 (the good bureaucrat's first memory of the rumors of peace: the man without a country's mother as a displaced child)
Readers 3(chapter 1): Chronological 5 (the good bureaucrat tries to repatriate the man without a country: the man without a country flees the gangsters)
Readers 4(vignette 3): Chronological 2 (the good bureaucrat meets the sisters of charity for the first time: the man without a country is born)
Readers 5 (chapter 2): Chornological 7 (the good bureaucrat and the man without a country take sides in a labor dispute -- the good bureaucrat splits with the other bureaucrats, the man without a country joins with the other repatriates: the teenaged mother sends her daughter and herself to school)
Readers 6 (vignette 4): Chronological 3(the good bureaucrat attends a peace demonstration: the man without a country's mother survives a massacre and dies of an epidemic)
Readers 7 (chapter 3): Chronological 6 (the good bureaucrat runs a camp: the man without a country takes responsibility for the teenaged mother)
Readers 8 (vignette 5): Chronological 4 (the good bureaucrat takes his first job as a bureaucrat in a refugee camp: the man without a country hides from other children: That Building is bombed: the mythology of the Flower Mother)

I hope it isn't more confusing than it ought to be.