Grief Song

actually made up October 4-5, 2009, and sung to a tune somewhat reminiscent of "The Lark in the Morning," but more subdued, and with a bit of chorus thing tagged to the end of the verse.

Used rather effectively as a lullaby, actually.

The waves play hard on the cliffs of the sea
they grind them fine and drop them on the strand
the land stands firm just as long as it can
but the sand grains drain far away from me
how much I love my darling but he's gone, gone, gone
how much I love my darling and he's gone


The roots of the tree rot away one day
and it falls across my path in the wood
there is no thing, neither bad nor good
that will stand, that will stand in entropy's way
how much I love my darling but he's gone, gone, gone
how much I love my darling and he's gone

The galaxies drift, falling farther and far
my sun won't hold its chilling heart
when every atom has been drafted apart
it all grows cold from my heart to the stars
how much I love my darling but he's gone, gone, gone
how much I love my darling and he's gone

They burned him finer than the sand of the sea
I stood there and cast the ash to the ground
the wind took hold and blew it around
leaving nothing but dust to cling to me
how much I love my darling but he's gone, gone, gone
how much I love my darling and he's gone

Words on the screen, anyhow, if to no special purpose

A thousand random words that erupted out of a conversation I haven't got to yet -- the conversation that came to me is like this:

"What happened?" Manny asked.
"He took no for an answer," Brewer said.
"You said no? But you said you had feelings for him."
"I did. He's a really good guy. The best."
Manny winced. "You still --"
"Yeah, I still have feelings for him, but -- not like that. He's better off the way it turned out: Joey's better than me."
"Anybody else I'd think they were lying if they said they blew somebody off for being too good for them. Scum usually say that, you know, because they think people will believe it, when really they think the person's just boring. But you're you, and you think crap like that. It's a mistake, you know? You know that?"
"Yeah, but it's a mistake I won't repeat."
"So the next time you feel something for a guy, and he tries to get close to you -- you won't be reflexively saying no?"
"Of course not."
Manny grinned widely, opened his mouth to speak again. Brewer cut him off before he could launch into some plan to hook him up with some random guy. "I won't be feeling something for a guy in the first place, all right?"

Yeah, it's a cheesy little romance piece, fullblown in my head.