Hey, Marilee!

[ritaxis]

More music links.

Marley's Ghost which probably everybody else knows about but me. They do a little bit of everything American. They were live on the radio today and they sang "Religion in Rhythm" and you know what I did.

And then there's the present the nice fellow bought for me. He heard it on the radio and just went to Streetlight Records and told them what he heard and they knew exactly what he was talking about and when I got home there it was and I listened to it straight through and you know what I thought -- "have to lend this to Luis so he can make a copy" -- but I can't. Oops, this is what it is: Prototyp Hurdy Gurdy music by two guys, one from Hedningarna and one from Garmarna, and it's entirely done with hurdy gurdies and computer postproduction stuff.

Hey, I think I'm going to be pretty tedious about this whole Electra thing for a while. I'm thinking of splitting the grief stuff off with a semi-locked thing, with only people who tell me they can stand the repetition of it able to read it. I promise I will put any juicy music links or other general things into public posts as well even if they're primarily relevant to me in the grief context. But I think -- well, we're all pretty devastated, and I don't see myself getting over it really soon, and I think it might be a bit much for modern minds -- we're not accustomed to wallowing in mourning like our nineteenth-century ancestors, and I think I'd like to spare folks my more atavistic flounderings. I mean, I'm wearing black, and it doesn't mean a thing to anybody looking at me, because fat ladies tend to wear black anyway to keep from having to wear fuschia or mint green: but it means something to me.

It's almost my brother's birthday and I want to give him something really fine, to make up for losing his father. I'm still thinking about what that would be.

So, on another front: financial aid forms sent in on time! Income taxes, state and federal, sent in on time! Property tax paid!

Comments

[sciamanna.livejournal.com]

Grief is healthy. There's a buddhist parable about grief, which is one of my favourites: Kisagotami's son (http://path.homestead.com/kisagotami.html). I don't think that keeping grief private is good or healty.

So yes, I would appreciate being on your filter if you do go ahead and make one.

Hugs,
Anna
(Sorry if you got notified twice. I formatted the link in the first version wrong.)

[ritaxis.livejournal.com]

Thank you -- I remember that story.

Now I'm distracted, thinking about the cross-cultural importance of mustard seed. I don't know what to think, except that mustard grows everywhere and its seed, while small, is very numerous and poignant. It's the ultimate weed: all parts edible, unrefined, rank growing, preferring the disturbed earth of orchards, vineyard, and roadsides . . .

Disturbed earth, that's what it is.

[papersky.livejournal.com]

Grief takes time.

And you'll probably want to tell him things and copy music for him your whole life, after all, you have been so far. So put me on the filter.

Also, have you seen daystreet's post on his blog "How to Live with Dead People"?

http://www.thecorpuscle.com/2004/12/how_to_live_wit.html

[ritaxis.livejournal.com]

I had forgotten that one. It's right there. I just read it again. Thank you for reminding me.

[thomasyan.livejournal.com]

I won't be able to offer you anything except sympathy, but please feel free to put me on the filter.

[mayakda.livejournal.com]

I lost my parents early. I think I understand grief and mourning. Put me on the list.

[mjlayman.livejournal.com]

Cool links! If you decide to filter, please put me on your list.

The first appointment with the psych, he commented that I was wearing red. I said "You think I'd look less fat in black?" and he said "Well...."

I gave my hair to Locks of Love yesterday and now have tiny curls all over. I don't think I'll keep it like this, but it's definitely different.

This will sound silly, because I don't know your brother and these aren't the kind of things my brother would like, but what about a carved box? Or something else handmade? (Not by you)

[ritaxis.livejournal.com]

I ended up getting him a couple of Carter Family CDs because it was Carter Family songs he was deriving comfort from.

[ellarien]

Grieving takes time -- far longer than modern customs allow for. (It's been nearly twenty years since my own father died, and I still inflict him on my flist from time to time.) It's also not something anyone can tell you how to do. I'd be honoured to be added to such a filter, if you felt comfortable doing that.

[boxofdelights]

I'd be glad to lend a sympathetic ear.