Current projects

[ritaxis]

I've gathered almost twenty pounds of black walnuts (in the husk). That is, something like two pounds of shelled black walnuts. If I buy a notcracker for $50, I think it pays for itself in two years.

I'll do the English walnuts tomorrow. It's goign to be a long curing time for both.

No Eureka tonight -- what's up with that?


I went to see my friend Glen in Pacific Grove this morning. Afterwards I went out Lover's Point to the end and cried a bit and sang a couple of significant songs. How long is a ground squirrel generation? The squirrels are really happy and fat and glossy and unafraid. How many generations have passed between the first time we ever went there together and now, thirty-seven years later? No otters, but I did see a sea lion in the medium distance. Surf was like a mirror, so I felt I could be at the point and be fine. No waves threatening the top.

Pacific Grove is really beautiful. It's also the place where we became lovers.

I'm really, really, really a mess.

Comments

[sciamanna.livejournal.com]

Virtual hugs are all I can offer at the moment. I know they're not very satisfying, but I offer them anyway if you want them.

You may be a mess, but you're also beautiful. It shows in all you write.

[pnkrokhockeymom.livejournal.com]

Unfortunately, being more than half a country away, virtual hugs is about all I've got too. (I also, of course, have voice hugs, and you should let me know if you ever want to talk).

And you are beautiful. I know you feel a mess right now. I'm not going to say any of those trite things everyone always says and they don't make you feel any better.

But I'm thinking really good thoughts for you. I hope you will let me know if there is anything at all I can do for you. When Rockgod moved out, and I was such a mess (for two years!) you were always there for me and so supportive, and I appreciate you so much.

And sciamanna is right--your beauty shows in all you write.

I'm sorry you're going through this.

[papersky.livejournal.com]

*hug*

It would be more surprising if you weren't, after all that time and everything.

Grief is so hard to get through.

[mjlayman.livejournal.com]

I wondered about the lack of Eureka, too, particularly since they just showed repeats of other things. It seems early to be the season end, but it was a season-ending kind of episode.

And it's pretty normal to be a mess at this point. But you're our mess and we love you.

[heleninwales.livejournal.com]

You're in my thoughts a lot. I wish I could do more than just offer virtual hugs and supportive thoughts. As papersky says, grief is so hard and we just have to work out a way to get through the worst somehow.

I've always loved your writing and the descriptions of where you live and the things you do. You are a lovely, capable and interesting person. If you feel a mess right now, it's only to be expected after what has happened.