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Tuesday, February 4th, 2014 10:43 pm
I just thought of this tonight while chatting with a friend: "the only way we get stories is because people fuck something up, or somebody fucks them over, or they are fucked up. See? Stories are all about the fucking, even when they have no sex in them."

As I said at the time, you are welcome and you may quote me on this.
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Thursday, May 25th, 2006 11:44 pm
What I won: remember I got attacked by a story about a couple of boys who don't? The story grew, and so did the boys, and now it's a story about boys who grow up and when they're grown up, they do.
It really seems appropriate for Iris except for one thing: it's 14K long, and their limit for shorts is 10K (their lower limit for novel-like objects is 50K, but there's no way I can stretch this that far). So I've queried.

What I lost: no room at the inn, because I called too late. Both Jules and David have already offered room at their houses, but I'm not sure whether that's actually better than going home (well, yeah, it is, because it's not over Highway 17 in the middle of the night). I'm all sort of glum about BayCon anyway because I really did try to sign up for the writer's workshops and the guy who's organizing it never answered any of my emails and, well, that didn't happen. And the story I submitted -- on time, too, according to the main website -- I would have been revising if I hadn't sent it in.

However, I won another thing: I did finish revising the one about the last people and the baby quilt, and it is a whole lot better, which is surprising because I had thought it was pretty well finished before.

It's midnight again and I'm still up, but that's because I was finishing the boy story and querying Iris about it.

Not because I was playing puzzle games online and eating puffed rice with almond milk, not me.

On another front: my absentee ballot has arrived. I think I will turn it in at the precinct I'm working at on the day.

I have made some decisions, but they were difficult:

governor -- Phil Angelides. All of a sudden Westly and Angelides have started running really mean nasty ads -- Westly started it. Oddly, the first nasty anti-Angelides ad was what pushed me over the edge: Westly accused Angelides of wanting to raise taxes on the rich, and praised himself for starting up eBay. No, eBay is not a bad thing, but it's weird to contrast yourself in that way -- "I'm not going to raise taxes, and I'm a super successful entrepreneur?"

Apparently a lot of other people feel the same way and said so to the pollsters who called them up, because the latest anti-Angelides ad accuses him of being a real estate developer. And says that Angelides' ads about how he got support from all the public service unions were paid for by real estate people.

See, context is everything.

County supervisor, for my district (3rd?) I have weird choice. Let's really get into this, okay?

Here they are:

Neal Coonerty, who owns Bookshop Santa Cruz, has been Mayor, and publishes bumper stickers that read "Keep Santa Cruz Weird --" context is everything, again: these bumper stickers are in favor of lightening up on the street musicians already. This is the conservative candidate, the one that the chamber of commerce and the downtown business association and the hotel owners like. I was really pissed off at him for a couple of years because of his behavior on the City Council, but I've forgiven him. He's reversed himself on a copuple of homelessy issues and he was always good on a couple of others and he might support the living wage. and he's definitely all for keeping open space and supporting kid things.

Chris Krohn -- also used to be on the City Council. Kind of volatile sometimes, but decent, lefty (a Green), and seems to have integrity. I can't remember getting pissed off at him.

Jonathan Boutelle -- former secretary of the Central Labor Council, used to be really active in labor and peace things, has laid low for a long time because of manic-depressive things. Can be a loose cannon, but generally progressive, and I can't help liking him because our kids grew up together (Emma: I don't think you know Tommy Boutelle, he's a year or so older than Frank), because we demonstrated for peace together back in the day, because he sang "Silhouettes on the Shade" with Tim McCormick and Chris Matthews (not that Chris Matthews, the local one who own the "Poet and Patriot" bar next to the downtown Bagelry) at the very first re-establishment of the Labor Day picnic which was organized by yours truly and a bunch of lefties because we wanted to sell sodas at it to raise money for the Texas Farmworkers.

Anyway. I'm expecting Coonerty to narrowly win, or maybe a runoff between Coonerty and Krohn. I'm voting for Boutelle. My reasoning is this: if he gets ten or fifteen percent of the vote, he has a parley with Coonerty and a parley with Krohn , and he says -- at the runoff I'll throw my supporters at you, if you make some agreements about labor issues, capisce?

It worked when whatshisname ran for City Council -- (no, not Robert Norse. This other guy whose name is Joe something and whose last name I cannot even bring to the tip of my tongue right now)I believe he gave his support to Emily Reilly and we sure could do worse than her (she's the one who comes from the bakery up the street and she's so thoughtful and comes out way to the left of where you expect a small business owner to end up)

County Schools Supervisor -- beats me. I'll figure it out soon, though.

Living Wage made it to the ballot, and the City Council is taking it pretty seriously. The Sentinel is all over it, saying how bad it is for the economy and all that.

Bed!
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Thursday, February 2nd, 2006 11:57 am
I read:
I Capture the Castle
Shadow in Ombria
Perfect Circle
California Landscape (geological history)
a nameless book for review
I saw:
Walk the Line (with Elizabeth)
I wrote:
the end of the draft of the story about the man who made a deal with the devil for a bigger vineyard
I went to San Francisco: seven times
I also visited my grandniece Julianna
I paid my late property taxes and helped Emma to apply for a union scholarship (I still have to file some old income taxes, and this year's)
I cleared the floor in the library and the laundry room
I went for I think six walks in the forest, and got lost once
I took about three hundred pictures, mostly of mushrooms in the forest
I wrote only five of the impeachment letters
I made an agreement with Zac about the shed after having found out that no company will sell us insurance until the old shed is down
I took in both cars for maintenance

February
I plan to take six walks in the forest and twelve shorter walks with the dog
I'm signed up for two water treatment plant tours
I plan to file this year's taxes and FAFSAs for both Frank and Emma
I plan to find out what I need to do to get the old taxes taken care of
I plan to go to the Parks and Rec old folks' fincancial class, to get the house etc. lined up so as to make things as convenient as possible for Frank and Emma when the inevitable happens
I plan to clear out the upstairs and get Emma's old computer set up there
I plan to update my scrapbook with photos of urban-rural Santa Cruz County
I plan to get the rest of The Donor online, to finish "Raining Here" and revise the devil deal vineyard story. I also plan to get Bella and Chain updated to the current time. And to start a new short story.
I plan to submit the new stories and the stories which have come back ("Convoy" and I forget which else and I can't check because I'm not home).
I plan to query agents for The Conduit. And to consider putting Esperanza Highway online.
This month is also he month for the fiftieth anniversary of my uncle and aunt in Los Angeles and the Chinese New Year Parade.

Today is Groundhog Day and the fifteenth anniversary of my mother's death.

I am not sure I saved the little brown bird that banged its head repeatedly trying to fly out Gloria's windows. It's breathing, and I set it in the sun, but it is either still stunned or dying.
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Friday, December 30th, 2005 09:12 am
Quattro Pro sorts the colums separately by default. That means I got my submissions tracker messed up and had to spend a half hour combing my LJ tags for what really happened this year (19 submissions, mostly in December). I was coy on a lot of those pages. I won't be anymore: I need two ways to keep track.

Today: Seven Little Men to Quantum Muse.
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Tuesday, December 6th, 2005 11:19 pm
We went to the woods along Empire Grade just across from upper campus but while we found some pretty things, and lots of fresh, shiny black bambi poop and dead bambi by the road, we found nothing to bring home.

I have been way too sedentary lately, for several reasons. I've been discouraged: I've been under the weather: I've been trying to be productive writing. The under the weather thing is the reflux/asthma/other stuff revolving door, which makes it hard to breathe for coughing and weird throat, and makes me just want to sit very very still.

So I've been trying to break through the cycle of that and I may have done so. Anyway, the result of all this sedentariness is that crashing through the underbrush was very tiring on those muscles that lift the legs when you step over branches and things. So I exercised them a little when I got back.

Also I submitted five stories today, including two I never got the rejections for, but dog, I am tired of waiting and feeling stymied. So I sent the GPS highway robbery story to "Amazing Journeys," and the bitter Gulf War piece to "From the Trenches," an anthology being put together by Carnifex Press, and the last people in the world/quilt block story to "Dark Energy." I sent the social worker story to "Futurismic," and I sent the self-aware minefield story to "The Intergalactic Medicine Show." And I added some words to the rain story, which still has no resolution.

Aynathie, I've started reading, but I'm really behind. I'll send you comments Wednesday (my time) and Thursday.

On other fronts: I am such a busy little bee: I have also nearly finished making myself a linen shirt for the holidays. A long time ago I bought these three pieces of linen, a warm rosy-golden brown one, a sagey-minty one, and a white one with a complicated woven-in pattern, to make an outfit of. I figured that with me making so little money this year, if I wanted holiday clothes I better make them out of what I have.

The pissy part is that the pattern I have is marked with the same size I buy clothes in at the store, but I had to add four inches to the shirt to get it to fit anything like the ready-made clothes with the same size number. I don't care whose fault it is, but I want them to stop doing this. Is it so hard to have an industry-wide standard which applies to all secotrs of the industry? Isn't it in the pattern companies' interests to present patterns which work for the regular customer without having to be redrawn?

I don't know if the cloth is pure linen or linen/cotton/rayon. Whatever it is, it wrinkles like crazy and feels delightful on my skin.
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Monday, December 5th, 2005 01:28 pm
I thought I'd return to the rain story and finish it. 1.7K words later I am no closer to ending it. Though the storm is ending. I'm tempted to end it when the storm ends, with the crew switching to cleanup operations andd making some observation aboutn the state of the world.

On the other hand, news from Nairobi is that my stepmother is doing okay, though she still can't talk properly. She's reading and walking, though one leg doesn't work right. Reading the missives sent before the stroke is very eerie -- she was overworked and had a runin with the Tanzanian police over a misunderstanding about an innocent delivery of a manuscript, and when you know what was about to happen it looks inevitable.

On still other fronts I am about to put a slightly larger batch of fruitcake into the oven.
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Saturday, December 3rd, 2005 01:34 am
It's 1:30 in the morning and I just put a large fruitcake in the oven. I followed a recipe -- more of a method and notes -- linked to by Teresa at Making Light. I made some adjustments: he calls for whole spices fresh gorund, which I could not do except for the nutmeg. He calls for mace which I forgot to get so I used two tablespoons of chopped candied ginger. My fruits were mostly "lightly sugared" ones from Staff of Life because the brown dry ones were ugly and they don't taste so good, but only the golden raisins fess up to sulphur. My whole list of fruits is long, because I got everything pretty there was: cranberries, pineapple, mango, dark and golden raisins, papaya, dates, apricots, prunes,and some caramelized lemon peel I had accidentally made when I set out to make lemon marmalade (I did succeed shortly afterwards). I didn't get anything dry or fossilized looking. The persimmons were dry and pale so I didn't get them, though they can be wonderful dried. The figs were also dark and hard, so I didn't get them. I figured the prunes and the dark raisins would add counterpoint to the riotous colors of the rest. I soaked the fruit in a mixture of okay brandy and fairly fresh orange juice (orange juice is Your Firend in the Kitchen). It's promising tasting and smelling and looking, but it all fit in the commercial half-pan, so for gifts I have to slice it up.

I might, since I have to be up anyway, actually clean the kitchen and maybe even make Gorgeous Apricot Jam Cookies. Maybe. Maybe not. I've never made enough of those to give away except on the one by one basis before.

On other fronts I wrote a very uncharacteristic story today. It begins like one of the high school romances on the nifty erotic archive, but as it progresses . . . they don't. The pov character is a kid who's been writing these steamy stories with characters which are clearly based on him and a schoolmate, and he's been submitting them to an online archive under the pretense of being old enough to do it, and he gets caught out by the boy who is the model -- and they almost -- but they don't. Because the young pornographer isn't ready to actually do it.

Nobody's looking for a story like that but it was satisfying to write, for no reason that I can determine, though the trope of avoiding the beloved is one that appeals to me because I think I do it with my life, you know? Like if my life were the beloved and I was avoiding it because I'm afraid it will reject me or consume me if it doesn't?

But nobody's looking for a short short about two boys who don't.
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Sunday, October 2nd, 2005 09:08 am
I refuse to use the word "meme" until every shred of the stupid misunderstanding about genetics and evolution that spawned the word has been dead and buried forever and forever.


Here are the first lines of the things I have around that are unfinished. I don't work on a lot of things at once. Most of these are things that are on hold for now.

Afterwar(which I am finishing real soon now, especially since I figured out that another 5-10K will make the last 5K easier to write)
From the plane you could not see the scars of the war. In this season the land was green and serene and healthy, a great lustrous animal supporting the symbiont cities, and fields, and parkland, and pulsing with clean, new, intelligent roads. But Pablo knew the scars existed, down below, subtle ones and shocking big ones, still telling the story of the racking disease of the war twenty-odd years before.


Bella and Chain (actually, I think the real beginning is different, but this is the earliest line I've written)
Bella spent Tuesday night on her latest star tower project. When her sister called, asking what she was up to, she had to answer "I'm stacking animals. And re-stacking them."

Clory's Contract(this is an amusement I return to now and then)
The first kiss was a surprise. Clory had imagined it before. but he had never expected it.

Mickey(working title)(this is a side effect of Esperanza Highway
All the students in one place and in one type of clothes and all with the same pile of papers in front of them and you could still pick Mickey out of the crowd. He sat at the dining hall table, his paperwork in front of him, his name tag disregarded, focussed on the welcome speech. Only Mickey held himself so rigid and sullen. Only Mickey frowned at every sentence the staff spoke.

Untitled (Damned Nation)(this is on hold due to lack of plot)
Hell is a bordertown factory, and there is no individual redemption.

A White Stone (working title)(this is turning inside out a novel that was rejected with encouragement)
A man walked into the Inmelr town from the western road, on foot like a harvest follower, but dressed well, in kingfisher blue and green, and carrying two instruments: a gittern, which while it had a low reputation was as capable of respectable music as any lute, and a hurdy-gurdy, which could do nothing but make a loud, rude, and thoroughly wonderful noise.

No Working Title
Felipe came up to the valley early in February, his pruning knife and his hook in his pants and a pair of old boots on his feet. There was work for him, though it was not at first easy to find. Joined a plowing gang for Mack, whose rancho was most of the land that had belonged to the Mission five years before and who intended to grow sugar beets though he had gotten a late start. Mack was the determined type of American, who thoughta pistol and a vision of success would suffice to bully the virgin land of California and the Indians hiding in it into producing abundance and profits never seen before by farmers who merely knew the land and worked it themselves.

I wanted to go on and put in the first lines of finished things that were unpublished, but that was a lot. All of them, actually, but a lot of them. So I didn't.

On other fronts, I saw the Mime Troupe yesterday, and it was the last summer show of the year, so it will do you no good for me to rave about it.

On still other frints, I am gradually becoming convinced I do have to do a Blandness Diet for a couple of weeks to see if it will cure my aching tongue and resurging reflux cough. This is not a happy thing. I think I will add the lovely things of life back in after a little while whether it gets better or no. If it gets better I will want to see if there is some compromise that will allow me to eat like a Californian. If it doesn't get better there's no point in eating like a -- I don't know what. like a person who eats bland things.