no endage in sight

[ritaxis]

It's never going to end. Never. I'm going to keep re-writing the last chapter until I die.

I did figure out the other guy's actual motivation, though. And it only means re-writing tiny pieces of half the scenes he's in. (turns out it's not that he's been reticent and too careful: he's picked up on a lot of high-maintenance, delicate, nutjobs in the past. This so works because it makes a lot more sense for him to be ambivalent about an apparent fragile nutjob, drawn to the person even as he recognizes what a morass he may be heading into)

Since I have so much I already know about the second draft, maybe I could just go do that and finish the last chapter when I get there again? Does that ever work?

On another front: as of today, I have lost 7% of my starting weight -- 25% of the total weight I intend to lose. At which point I will still be at least forty pounds over what they tell you one ought to weigh at my height, which is actually more of a lowth.

On still another front, today I witnessed a six-month-old baby lying on his back on the floor, inchworm his way backwards across the room -- swiftly -- I don't know if I can give a proper description. He would arch his belly till he was supporting himself on his shoulders and toes, scrunch up, and flop down again, having pushed himself a few inches headwards. All the time guffawing. Occasionally flapping his arms. This baby guffaws a lot. I guess you can see why.

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[mjlayman.livejournal.com]

What a silly, and practical, baby!

What are you eating if you're not eating any carbohydrates? I didn't weigh at Kaiser yesterday because it was 101 and I was sure I'd sweat out extra pounds of water.

[ritaxis.livejournal.com]

It's not really no carbohydrates, it's no fruit, no grains, no extra-starchy veggies, no sugary things. Which is as close to no carbohydrates as I care to get. Actually, there's even a limit on how many onions and tomatoes I can have, though it's generous enough, considering I only have to do this for another week. And there's oddly no limit on dried legumes, which while they are high in protein and fiber, are also high in carbohydrates (so I cheated, in my mind at least, last night, and had farinata -- which is kind of like a pancake or a pizza, made of garbanzo flour!)

So, breakfast is: however much protein food you want to eat and at least a half cup of some kind of non-starchy vegetable. Lunch is however much protein food you want and at least two cups of non-starchy vegetable. Dinner is the same. There are snacks. You're supposed to pretty starkly limit fats, including nuts: you can have, for example, 75 cashews in a day, which is a pretty high limit, now that I think of it.

It's not hard for me. If I'm cooking the only difference between this and my regular life is that I would also be eating rice, pasta, potatoes, fruit and honestly too many sweets. But the two cups of veggies is a snap if I'm cooking. So I'm cooking.

So, breakfast this week: peas with lean ham and imitation crab (even though I'm phasing out seafood because I think we should have a moratorium on all sea harvesting for a generation or so, because otherwise I think there will be no seafood to defend later on), green salad with turkey and low-fat jack cheese, cauliflower with egg, caprese salad and portabello mushrooms with I forget what.

Lunch was leftovers: leftover cauliflower with rosemary, leftover caprese salad, leftover chard soup, chicken with I forget what, and one day it was just a stack of raw celery.

Dinner was cauliflower with rosemary and fried peppers and the guys had lentils and rice, chard soup and caprese salad, beef with broccoli and mushrooms, and I forget what else.

I eat too many peanuts, but otherwise I haven't had a problem, and I might drag my feet a little on stopping it.

[mjlayman.livejournal.com]

Ah, I was thinking you were eating only protein, which isn't good for you! I couldn't do that because I can only have 40gr protein in a day.

For me, most days:

Breakfast is steel cut oatmeal (set to cook to be done about 30 minutes after I get up) with a handful of fruit (usually blueberries -- I freeze lots of them for the winter) and a handful of walnut pieces. I have the required glass of cranberry juice.

Lunch is either a can of soup or a frozen meal with a glass of iced tea.

In the afternoon, I have the required 32oz non-sugar rehydration fluid.

In the evening, I microwave a package of frozen veggies and have iced tea with it.

I have iced tea the other times I drink, (except for pills, which get water). Oh, and sometimes I want hot tea and very occasionally I make a pot of it; usually I just microwave iced tea.

I eat out at a fast casual place once a week and although I'm careful about the protein, there's usually enough food I'm not hungry that day and just have the juice & rehyration fluid.

And I have a lot of whole grains and sometimes instead of oatmeal for breakfast, I make something in the rice cooker with one of those and add some protein (like tuna or chicken) and it substitutes for both breakfast and lunch. I've tried keeping veggies to add, but they just get weird before I use them.

That's something else I have to ask the doctor -- now that my rehydration fluid is 20 calories a day instead of 200, I'm eating about 850 a day and I have to find out if they still want me to have a minimum of 1000.